Tortok sat at his station on the bridge, examining the requisition list that he had made and comparing it to the supplies that were expected to come aboard. Something he could have done in his lab. He had spent much time there, picking up the pieces and focusing on work. He was still recovering, as was much of the crew. His wounds had healed thanks to the talents of the medical staff. The emotional scars remained.
He was grateful for his Vulcan half. If he had not had some of the specialized training from his mother, then he figured that he would have curled up in a ball in the science lab to be forgotten. The emotions were still eating away at him, wearing down his armor. As the docking procedure fully began he turned away from the screen and just watched the bridge. He could have gone over the lists in his lab, but this was the real reason he was here.
The procedure was a marvel of logic, form, and maneuvering. Every statement, every movement had a purpose. It was as graceful as a ballet and as well timed as an old fashioned watch. It was a spectacle to watch and it gave him piece every time. After docking, liberty was granted. The order then came that all senior staff make were to convene on the station later, Tortok included himself in that number, he was the only science officer on board this ship.
When he cleared the bridge he made his way to his quarters. He was off duty when he was on the bridge, but being the own science officer on a “heavy escort” ship meant he pretty much made his own schedule.
As he entered his quarters he noticed his bunk-mate was on duty, relieved a the solitude he made his way to the mirror. What he saw he didn’t like. He looked older, leaner. The last two months had sharpened his edges. His hair which he tried to control the best he did was starting to cause an emotional reaction in him. He took out the trimmer and started to trim it into the standard Vulcan bowl cut.
He stared at it and what looked back wasn’t him, not anymore. At that moment he wanted to experiment. Being in constant control was wearing on him, and meditation wasn’t effective. He felt he needed to let loose. That is when he decided to shave his head, bald. When he was done, he stared at his pointed ears, sticking out of his head and started to laugh. A chuckle to himself at first, then building to an outburst a laughter, then dissolved into the giggles that hurt his diaphragm.
He felt good, better than he had in a long time. If Vulcans admitted being embarrassed, he should have felt it, but he didn’t care. He looked at his wardrobe, he had a view civilian clothes, all in Vulcan fashion, some were meditation robes. None of it suited him. Tortok walked over to the replicator.
“Computer, civilian attire.”
“Specify”
He was grateful for his Vulcan half. If he had not had some of the specialized training from his mother, then he figured that he would have curled up in a ball in the science lab to be forgotten. The emotions were still eating away at him, wearing down his armor. As the docking procedure fully began he turned away from the screen and just watched the bridge. He could have gone over the lists in his lab, but this was the real reason he was here.
The procedure was a marvel of logic, form, and maneuvering. Every statement, every movement had a purpose. It was as graceful as a ballet and as well timed as an old fashioned watch. It was a spectacle to watch and it gave him piece every time. After docking, liberty was granted. The order then came that all senior staff make were to convene on the station later, Tortok included himself in that number, he was the only science officer on board this ship.
When he cleared the bridge he made his way to his quarters. He was off duty when he was on the bridge, but being the own science officer on a “heavy escort” ship meant he pretty much made his own schedule.
As he entered his quarters he noticed his bunk-mate was on duty, relieved a the solitude he made his way to the mirror. What he saw he didn’t like. He looked older, leaner. The last two months had sharpened his edges. His hair which he tried to control the best he did was starting to cause an emotional reaction in him. He took out the trimmer and started to trim it into the standard Vulcan bowl cut.
He stared at it and what looked back wasn’t him, not anymore. At that moment he wanted to experiment. Being in constant control was wearing on him, and meditation wasn’t effective. He felt he needed to let loose. That is when he decided to shave his head, bald. When he was done, he stared at his pointed ears, sticking out of his head and started to laugh. A chuckle to himself at first, then building to an outburst a laughter, then dissolved into the giggles that hurt his diaphragm.
He felt good, better than he had in a long time. If Vulcans admitted being embarrassed, he should have felt it, but he didn’t care. He looked at his wardrobe, he had a view civilian clothes, all in Vulcan fashion, some were meditation robes. None of it suited him. Tortok walked over to the replicator.
“Computer, civilian attire.”
“Specify”
“Collard shirt, white, button down. Silk vest, green, and blue denim pants.”
After a quick scan for his measurements the garments appeared neatly folded on the replicator pad. He put them on, remembering old earth sayings about clothes and men, and walked back to the mirror. He barely recognized himself. His posture was different, more relaxed. A smile crept onto his lips.
He left his quarters and made his way to the gang plank. He wanted to hit the promenade, find a beverage to share at dinner, and re-introduce himself to his crew-mates. The lessons of control that his mother taught him burned in the back of his mind. But he needed to experiment. He needed to find out about this side he had shut away for so long.